She Comes to Me in Dreams
Last night Eva appeared in my dreams. She had come back to find you. She had an important mission of some kind that she needed to tend to. You dropped everything to go with her. You were younger and thinner, with more hair. You explained that you needed to do this and I let you. I tried to follow you and I couldn’t because you were going too fast, through a maze like rocky landscape. I awoke feeling jealous. A dream made me feel that way? I took some time to look at her Facebook memorial page. It was full of pictures of younger you. Skinnier. With more hair. You guys came of age together. From kids to adults. Your beautiful wedding. Your new house. Your new baby. The different fashions and hair styles. Your special places. She is so incredibly beautiful, I’m sure she made women jealous even in her lifetime. But I wonder how can I be jealous of her now, even though she is gone? I wish I could be her. At the least be more like her. Then maybe you would love me. But I know in m...
